Is my son normal?

I think there something wrong with Connor, yesterday I was looking at Connor and noticed that he has a defect the same one that I have, its called hypoglutolysis , I know it sounds kind of scary but I think he will be okay in time. It’s like something is eating his butt when he is standing there is no transition from his back to his butt and to his legs. Is there some sort of enzyme that is destroying the adipose tissue there? Should he get some kind of butt implants so he has to go though life without butt? If they can do lips with not our buns. My poor son to be cursed like his father to walk the earth with smaller then normal cheeks, his pants will not stay up and will go though life exposing himself unknowing to what he doing. Why is this so? And to think all this started yesterday he playing and bent over to get a toy off the floor and his plumbers crack was showing with all its pride, because I have to remember his grandfather is a plumber and do small plumbing job and it’s in the jeans. To be passed down though the times father to son and now to grandson.

words

these are words that how I feel sometimes. the first time I heard I felt like it was written for me. It just show the love for Jesus that he has for me and you and the rest of the world

Stained Glass Masquerade by Casting Crowns

Is there anyone that fails
Is there anyone that falls
Am I the only one in church today feelin’ so small

Cause when I take a look around
Everybody seems so strong
I know they’ll soon discover
That I don’t belong

So I tuck it all away, like everything’s okay
If I make them all believe it, maybe I’ll believe it too
So with a painted grin, I play the heart again
So everyone will see me the way that I see them

Are we happy plastic people
Under shiny plastic steeples
With walls around our weakness
And smiles to hide our pain
But if the invitation’s open
To every heart that has been broken
Maybe then we close the curtain
On our stained glass masquerade

Is there anyone who’s been there
Are there any hands to raise
Am I the only one who’s traded
In the altar for a stage

The performance is convincing
And we know every line by heart
Only when no one is watching
Can we really fall apart

But would it set me free
If I dared to let you see
The truth behind the person
That you imagine me to be

Would your arms be open
Or would you walk away
Would the love of Jesus
Be enough to make you stay

monday

As I'm here writing what will may or may not get me in trouble with Melissa I feel I need to do this. Do you ever have a song that just fits you to a T, I that sing is you and it feels it was written just for you, my song is Stained Glass Masquerade by Casting Crowns. I do have problems in my life and try so hard to hide them from most people a few know me and I’ll talk to them. But I tired of hiding them now. Why do we feel that we should push how we feel back, like I’m a man I don’t feel anything. It’s hard to explain why I or we do this.
I know its not easy being married we have been married for almost four years and I still make mistakes. Melissa and I are going though a rough time right now, I love with all my heart and would give the world if I could. I can’t express how I feel sometimes like how I feel and that just leads to more and bigger problems. I walk around like there is nothing wrong and huge thing looms over our heads it and I don’t like that feeling. Is there an easy way out there. The hard way is to make it work out. We us I go to school two days a week then Melissa goes two days week then I works on Friday , Saturday and Sunday and leaves very time for one another. So how do I get more time in the day. I’m tired of beating my head into the ground and going nowhere. Thanks for listening. Keep us in prayers. Also I’m not putting to this there so that everyone might feel sorry for me but maybe that it could help someone else out. In the words of Tom I don’t want to go camp on regular basics

Safe and home

We have made home and all in one piece. It was a long drive but some great conversion. I still Ohio is not a fun state to drive though it not even petty at night ( sorry Jim) I did see a rather large bust of Jesus and it was my visit to Alabama and Mississippi. It was a great feeling of love to be there to help a follow brother and sister in a time of need. and thank you once again Jim and Donna for watching our kids. Thanks for all the prayers, it is now time for a nap for my wife

heading south

This afternoon Sammy , Melissa and myself are heading down Alabama for Linda's funeral service please keep us in your prayers foe safe trip down and back. and keep the Drew family in all our prayers thanks ryan

an outing with the family

Thursday a large group attended a what I would a a a worship concert at Northridge and was an awesome thing to be standing with my brothers and sisters praising our God with people I know and those I didn’t but were my family in Christ and it felt great. Good music and a better message about life and how we live it and which we can go only two choices and you can pick which way to go. I was looking around and seeing all those people doing the same thing as me singing sitting giving praise to the father. A friend told me that it holds about 3,500 people but it felt much smaller than that, which lead to think about something I had read in ACTS verse 2 about the day at Pentecost when all them people could from different places speak different languages came together to hear about our Lord and about 3000 thousand were saved that day. 3000 thousand about the number of people in the same room as I was in listening and praising God in one area. What it must have been like on that day. Brothers and sisters from every walk of life coming together how he must felt to see his children on that day, seeing Peter leading teaching and spreading the word. I felt so alive riding home that evening and this morning still pumped up all I was just feeling good. Now just to keep that drive going sure the music will fade from my mind but he will never leave my heart and soul. The one thought that keep going though my head is God does not need me he wants me. Me Ryan he wants me and you and everyone else one that room in this state and world. To be wanted. Thanks all who came and who drove us home and Russ for getting tickets

an outing

Thursday a large group attended a what I would a a a worship concert at Northridge and was an awesome thing to be standing with my brother and sisters praising our God with people I know and those I didn’t but were my family in Christ and felt great. Good music and a better message about life and how we live it and which we can go only two choices and you can pick which way to go. I was looking around and seeing all those people doing the same thing as me singing sitting give praise to the father. A friend told me that it holds about 3500 people but it felt much smaller than that, which lead to think about something I had read in href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=acts%202&version=31">ACTS verse 2 about the day at Pentecost when all them people could from different places speak different languages came together to hear about our Lord and about 3000 thousand were saved that day. 3000 thousand about the number of people in the same room as I was in listening and praising God in one area. What it must have been like on that day. Brothers and sisters from every walk of life coming together how he must felt to see his children on that day, seeing Peter leading teaching and spreading the word. I felt so alive riding home that evening and this morning still pumped up all I was just feeling good. Now just to keep that drive going sure the music will fade from my mind but he will never leave my heart and soul. The one thought that keep going though my head is God does not need me he wants me. Me Ryan he wants me and you and everyone else one that room in this state and world. To be wanted. Thanks all who came and who drove us home and Russ for getting tickets

Tuesday morning slump

I strongly like Tom has been going on with his Psalm 40 verses . It just is amazing how that fits into my life. The last couple of weeks Melissa and I have been talking how I feel about being in the slump or rut. I feel when you are driving down an old two-track road and you could let go of the wheel and the truck could just bounce off the sides of rut and still keep going forward just give her some gas and away I would go. But I don’t like that slump it not any fun life just kinda passes, but. Sure you moving forward but are going anywhere. School is getting me down it just seems to go by and by and still. I’m should not complain I have food in the cupboards and gas in the cars and a roof to keep our kids head dry and a great loving wife and two wonderful children. I just don't like thus feeling of being in a rut. So if you could say a prayer for me and for Melissa for having too deal with me. Thanks a happy sheep Ryan

thoughts

I have been working on our basement this week being spring break and all. Keturah and Connor both need new rooms. So I bought a new saw blade for my circular saw and I can’t believe how much better it cuts and the old blade wasn’t that old either. Just a new crosscut blade. Which got me thinking again, dangerous I know but still thinking how the right tool just makes the job so much easier. How in life if we have the right tool we can do just anything in life and that tool is bible and how with everything else in life is right there in front of us. We that we can build bridges that would the world could see and build more homes that families could live in and not just wooden building but loving homes that know about Jesus and how died for you and me. And this because the gift of a son born in a little town in the middle of nowhere. And this started with a new saw blade. What tool are you going to use today and tomorrow?

Steve

My friend Steve Jenning had passed away. He has been on the pray list for quite someime now. If you could keep his kids Casy and Steven in yours prayeres I know like that very much. I know in the end he did refind the lord and is in the kingdom of heaven. thanks ryan

beagle pup

Does any have the want or need of a beagle pup his is about 1 to 2 years old seems house broken like to chew good manners . he showed up about a week ago and needs a good home if you are looking call me or email me thanks ryan

1 Peter 2:12

Live such good lives among the pagans that, though they accuse you of doing wrong, they may see your good deeds and glorify God on the day he visits us.
I read this morning and I keep thinking more about this. Go live your life a good life in the name of the lord and let look and see how we live are lives so may be they would or could see how. Sounds easy huh. I'm still trying I have a lot of great days and sometimes a bad day here and there. The bad days keep getting farther apart.