monday

As I'm here writing what will may or may not get me in trouble with Melissa I feel I need to do this. Do you ever have a song that just fits you to a T, I that sing is you and it feels it was written just for you, my song is Stained Glass Masquerade by Casting Crowns. I do have problems in my life and try so hard to hide them from most people a few know me and I’ll talk to them. But I tired of hiding them now. Why do we feel that we should push how we feel back, like I’m a man I don’t feel anything. It’s hard to explain why I or we do this.
I know its not easy being married we have been married for almost four years and I still make mistakes. Melissa and I are going though a rough time right now, I love with all my heart and would give the world if I could. I can’t express how I feel sometimes like how I feel and that just leads to more and bigger problems. I walk around like there is nothing wrong and huge thing looms over our heads it and I don’t like that feeling. Is there an easy way out there. The hard way is to make it work out. We us I go to school two days a week then Melissa goes two days week then I works on Friday , Saturday and Sunday and leaves very time for one another. So how do I get more time in the day. I’m tired of beating my head into the ground and going nowhere. Thanks for listening. Keep us in prayers. Also I’m not putting to this there so that everyone might feel sorry for me but maybe that it could help someone else out. In the words of Tom I don’t want to go camp on regular basics